Monday, March 24, 2014


Susie loves me. I think I'm her favorite thing in the world. I am food, I am music, I am swing set, I am diaper changing machine, I am tickler; I am everything to her. And its exhausting.

Little time for dates, shopping, eating, or regular hygiene.

Here is Jonathan holding Susie so I could eat when we went to Foster's. He was able to get her to sleep and still finish his fries. He is superhuman.


Wednesday, March 12, 2014


Teething, you art a heartless guttersnipe.

Susie is a horrible drooling mess. She's 3.5 months old and can barely hold up her head, let alone put a teething toy in her mouth to soothe the pain. When she's at her screeching worst, she doesn't even want to nurse. All I can do is rock her and sing "Over (and over and over) the Rainbow." The moment I stop is the moment she starts screaming again.

I know Susie won't remember the pain, but I feel bad that Joanna is being so impacted by it all. Susie shrieks, I comfort her, and Joanna looks at me then picks up one of her dolls and tries to console it. She is having a hard time understanding why Susan is allowed to cry and complain but she can't. Joey has a great deal of empathy, too so she starts crying and seeking comfort. It's not in a "give me attention now!" kind of way - I can tell she is sincerely sad for her sister's pain.

So far we're addressing Susie's teeth with an amber teething necklace on her ankle (because she doesn't have the neck control to wear it as a necklace), orajel, and some pain reliever. I gave up caffeine for now (OY!) so she can hopefully get to sleep more easily.  She's too large and my torso is too small to baby wear her like an infant, and she's too young for me to wear her like a 9 month old (even though she's the size of one). Bigger is not always better.

She's crying again. Time to put my ruby slippers back on.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

3 Months Old

I'm getting very bad at updates. Life is insane. My business is booming and my house is a hurricane. I'm keeping up with quick updates to Facebook and Instagram but it takes a small army to update my blog. We were going to do photos in the chair again like we did for Joey, but the couch has much better lighting. Joanna sometimes likes participating, too.

Susie is screaming less, eating more, and starting to smile. My little one is getting into 9 month clothes. She'll soon catch up to her cousins that were also born in 2013. (My gigantic monster children will starting giving them handmedowns.)



Maybe with all of this snow, I can get more done? Or I'll go more insane? Or both?