Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Sick from Stress

My dad died 2 months ago.

My friend Josh died 2 weeks ago and his funeral is on Saturday.

Stress is making me sick.

I've been fighting to keep the house organized, keep my appointments up to date, keep my kids out of trouble, keep my marriage a priority, and keep my mom company - which means my health and friendships keep getting put on the back burner.

I'm currently fighting a sudden onslaught of deep chest congestion and pressure - so much so that I thought I was having heart issues. I had bad chills at 4:00 a.m. and a fever this morning. But still, I couldn't be still - I emptied the dish washer, helped get the girls ready for school, sold our old car, and worked from home so I wouldn't disappoint anyone.

I need a day where I am not mom, daughter, wife, friend, or employee.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Heart Disease is the #1 Killer

Heart disease is the #1 killer of women.
Heart disease is also the #1 killer of my family members.


We have a running joke in my family that if you don't die in your 50's of a heart attack, you'll live to your 80's.  To our knowledge, no one in our family has had cancer of any kind. But a bad heart? Yup, got that.

Knowing this, my parents were meticulous about their health. They both ate well, my dad would take walks every day, my mom does Yoga and works out multiple times a week, and they always saw their doctor for regular check-ups. My dad died suddenly of a massive heart attack that killed him in a moment. His doctor was just as shocked as we were.

"So if a heart attack can kill me any time, why even bother taking care of my health?"

Good question, self.

My dad probably lived longer because he took care of himself. He still died too soon but he likely would have died sooner had he not eaten well and exercised.

So knowing that my dad, my dad's dad, my grandma's sister, my grandma's brother, my grandpa's brother, and my grandpa's dad all had fatal heart attacks, I know I need to get my health in check.


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