Today we had an appointment scheduled for a first sonogram for our second baby. Due to circumstances beyond our control, I had to cancel that appointment yesterday.
On Friday June 29th, our unborn baby went to be with the Lord. We were just a few days away from seeing him on the ultrasound and hearing his heartbeat in the doctor's office. We instead saw him on an ER ultrasound with a flat line.
We were calling him Buddy because he would be arriving around Christmas. He's now with his cousin Oliver.
10-25% of pregnancies end in a miscarriage [according to the American Pregnancy Organization] yet few women talk about their experiences. I don't want to be silent about our loss. If anything I want those 10-25% to know they aren't alone. I'm not sure when we'll be ready to publish our story but I know it will happen. [ UPDATE : Here is our story ]
We are doing okay. As of today, my HCG (pregnancy hormones) levels are still high which means my body isn't done with the process. The doctor told us that the worst is over and now we just wait until it's done. She said it would be wise to wait until October to try again. In the mean time, I plan on losing at least 15 pounds so I can have a happy and healthy home for our baby to grow.