I'm not nearly as anxious today as I was yesterday. One of the coolest things was that we received a card in the mail this morning (not yesterday afternoon but this morning!). It was from my best friend Briana and it was dated October 2010. She is moving out of her childhood home into a smaller place and in the midst of preparing, the letter didn't get mailed right away. She found it while we were chatting on the phone the other day, forgot what she wrote, but stuck it in the mail anyway.
Laura-Do not make an occasion out of none just because you want a box in ribbons and shiny paper. Let God pick the day He wants to send you a card or just-because gift. It is like looking a gift horse in the mouth. I love you both and am so proud of the parents you are already becoming!
Wow. You can't tell me that wasn't God's timing.
Also last night, Romans 15:13 was read aloud and it really rang with me. The hope He's talking about is not hope for our desires or hope for children, it's the hope of Jesus and His return. I have faith that God knows what He's doing and the hope that Jesus will return and the hope that we will join Him in Heaven. I mean we still have hope to have kids, but he's teaching me that being a parent isn't about having kids, it's about loving kids. We don't need biological children to be parents, we don't even need children in our home to be parents! We can be a mother and father to kids who need it by loving, encouraging, sharing, and most importantly listening to them and giving them our attention.
Another note (it's been a busy week!) last night after worship practice I got to sit on a couch with a young girl named Emma. Normally, I would avoid her like the plague because I haven't been able to be around kids lately without coveting and wanting one of my own. Tonight was different. Emma and I chatted like two new best friends - we talked about Ancient Egypt, Mythbusters, Dirty Jobs, evil little brothers, Labradoodles and Great Danes, and NASA. I had such a good time that I didn't realize we spent nearly 25 minutes gabbing away. I'm incredibly humbled and thankful I was able to have that time with her and learn more about her and what she's learning.