This Week's Thoughts: Week 5
We had big plans to work out yesterday and at around 3:00, my body started to crash. I could smell everything, I was incredibly tired and shaky, and I just wanted to go home and sleep. Jonathan drove us home and let me be a blob on the couch while he made chicken and corn with salt, pepper, and lemon juice. It was perfect! We later made chocolate marble cookies with Amanda. They were yummy but I could only eat one, my body was done.
I'm eating the same amount of calories and I'm trying to really make them count - fruits, veggies, good carbs, fewer fries and sweets and no more caffeine or dark sodas. I thought maybe I would de-bloat a bit, but my pants still don't fit!! Looks like there's no turning back until Christmas.
I have an underlying fear and doubt that we aren't really pregnant - What if it's another chemical pregnancy? What if we miscarry? What if it's all psychosomatic? I also have a fear that I got pregnant at Christmas rather than Vegas so I could be 4 weeks behind on a doctor's appointment if my calculations are off. March 21st needs to hurry up!!
Shortly after writing this, I crashed again and did a half day at work. I went home and slept for 5 hours, woke up, went to church, then konked out again at 12. I am muy sleepio.
Rich and Lisa sent us a congratulatory $25 gift card to Amazon, so I promptly bought two baby books for Jonathan and I. For myself, I bought Alison Sweeney's new book "The Mommy Diet". For Jonathan, I bought a book that looks both entertaining and informative: "Be Prepared: A Practical Handbook for New Dads"
I thought I'd be thankful to not feel nauseas all day, but I'm scared instead. I don't "feel" pregnant anymore.
I'm going to Target to get more tests..
$25 later (some retail therapy never hurt), I am still prego. I'm apparently SUPER prego because the pregnancy line was very dark and the test line was faded, so I'm still very knocked up.